I'm going to work half-days this week, then reassess and see how I feel on Monday. If I'm feeling good, then I'll go back full-time. If I start to feel bad, I will leave early. I am very grateful that I don't have to do any walking for my job and that my desk and office will be my refuge. I know that it will not be easy, but not everything is. It's going to take a lot of time to get ready in the morning, and hobbling around with crutches and a knee walker isn't a walk (ha!) in the park. I will have to constantly remind myself that I have to go slow and not try to be a show off at work as to how tough I am. Who am I kidding? When it's come to this surgery, I am far from tough and even through a relatively easy recovery I get scared and nervous and apprehensive over little things. I just have to remember that when surrounded by my colleagues. I'm human too. Let a little of the shell break.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
A Working Convalescence
Tomorrow I am heading back to work after being off since May 4th. Seems like a lifetime ago at times, then other times just like yesterday. I've had a successful surgery, an uneventful beginning to my recovery, and am getting my strength back a little every day. Going back to work is going to be difficult at times, but it will definitely be good for me emotionally. Have I changed any? Have they changed any? Will they look at me funny? Will they even care or will they just look at me with pity?